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I start back at work tomorrow and to tell you the truth, I don’t feel ready. I’ve spent near enough all of my maternity leave in hospital. Granted, 2020 hasn’t been a very normal year for anybody. I would have at least liked to ventured out and experienced new mum life a little bit more before heading to work.
I’m only going back once a week. To be honest, that’s all I have time to do. In between Jack’s appointments and surguries coming up and me deciding now would be a great time to start studying for my masters degree. It doesn’t leave me with much time. In fact, I could do with an extra day in the week. That would be fantastic.
My uniform is washed and is currently drying. I have my badge and landyard to hand. All I need now is a little bit of confidence, then I will be on my way.
I’m dreading saying goodbye to Jack’s little face. I’m going to miss him so much. I have so many scary thoughts going around in my head and they’re all telling me that he’s not going to be okay. Or that, the one day I do leave is the day he pulls his tracheostomy out.
I’m sure it will be fine. This is what I keep telling myself anyway.
How did you cope going back to work after maternity leave? What were some of the thought that you had? I would love to know in the comments below.